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Voicemail (Cerealia)
This is Kuzuryuu Fuyuhiko. Obviously, I'm not here right now, so leave a message and maybe I'll get back to you later if it's not something stupid.
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[Kuzuryuu drags the nail of his index finger across the side of his cup, staring into the liquid like it contains all the secrets of the universe or something. It doesn't actually make any noise, it just appears to be more a subconscious fidgeting on his part. Something similar to how he futzes with his tie when he's embarrassed or flustered. In this case though, he seems to be thinking. It's a relatively straightforward question, just a simple yes or no and yet...he doesn't seem to be able to answer it readily.]
[Because it would be a lie to say that he's never had feelings like that for Peko. But if those feelings DO still exist, they're on a level buried so deep that Kuzuryuu isn't even aware of them anymore. More than anything, he wants to be FRIENDS with Peko. And that alone is proving to be quite the feat. And that's not even getting into the issues of his family and her position and all that shit.]
Remember what I said back when we first met? Peko and I...we can't truly be called friends. We've known each other our whole lives and she's very important to me but...we were never allowed to be friends. Or equals, for that matter. So something like dating... [He trails off.] It wouldn't work out. She still can't even call me by name if other people are around, and she still sees me as something that she needs to protect.
[He swishes the tea around in his cup. This whole time he's been talking more to the teacup than to Mabel and it doesn't look like that's changing just yet.]
I'd rather have her as my equal and my friend than my girlfriend. So I guess...the answer is no. I don't.
[Like like her, that is.]
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That's just...
That's really sad? Incredibly sad, honestly. That's gotta be an awful way to feel, she can't even imagine it. It's nothing she's had to experience before since making friends is really natural for her.
And then thinking about the way he feels versus the way she's confident Peko feels...
She doesn't answer immediately, staring her hot chocolate down in thought.]
That must be really hard...
[Right now, more than anything, she wants to help. Where do you start helping something like that though?]
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[He laughs wryly, taking a sip of his tea. Because that is like the exact OPPOSITE of how he's always felt.]
We're getting better about communicating now, and she's stopped thinking of herself as a tool so...it's better. We're better. But something like romance, with our history? Not a good idea. And besides, I'm not interested in romance or dating anyway so it's kind of a moot point.
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[So full of questions, sorry. Not interested in romance or dating though, that is so wrong. Kuzuryuu how can you not be interested in that? She's going to save that for the moment though, find a better place to bring that up.]
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[So Peko is Yakuza too, apparently.]
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I think I understand then! It's hard, because you're an heir to something big and important [and criminal-y] and she's supposed to protect you, and that kind of relationship isn't okay usually! Right?
[Peko is Yakuza too. Man she's meeting so many cool people here.]
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[That and they're both absolute garbage at socializing. Making friends is not easy for either of them.]
Peko's always seen herself as nothing more than a tool for me. As far as she was concerned, her life didn't matter compared to mine.
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["Something like romance, with our history?" Those were your words. You specified romance, mister, it's not her fault! But again we're back to sad things. First they can't be friends even though Kuzuryuu really wants to and she's sure Peko does too, and now something like this...?]
Does she still think that way? You said you're getting better, and you're using "was" and "didn't"...
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[He was speaking hypothetically, jeez!]
She doesn't still think like that though, no. But I'd rather not get into the details...this conversation is already more serious than I'd hoped it would be. [He takes another sip of tea.] Sorry, I shouldn't have dumped all this on you.
[See here's his garbage socializing at work. He can only maintain small talk for so long before the conversation nearly always turns to something depressing. Even when he specifically goes into a conversation wanting to keep it light. Like right now.]
[But hey, at least he likes/trusts her enough to tell her this. That's a good thing, right?]
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It's okay though! You don't have to be sorry. I'm glad you told me. [Because yes, that means he both likes and trusts her enough to tell her that! Pluuuus she can avoid doing some potentially awkward things like try and set them up on dates or something.] Talking about that kind of stuff is good for you anyway, and I don't mind listening.
[Which is a quiet "if you ever wanna talk about anything else I'm here for you". She takes a sip of her hot chocolate.]
Though you know, I have another question for you now. [If they're changing the subject.]
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[What with Dipper being gone and all.]
Another one? [Jeez, why is it all about him still? Didn't you want his advice about this Ciel kid?? Maybe they can go back to that later...]
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But anyway, yes, another one! Why don't you care about romance or dating and stuff?
[Yes, now is the good time to ask. Also yes, they can definitely come back to Ciel later, she still needs advice.]
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[You are the second person to ask him this, Mabel. It's really not THAT unthinkable, is it? He takes another sip of tea, clearly waiting on Mabel's counter-counter argument.]
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[Not even holding back here. Gonna lay her cards on the table from the get go.]
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Because I've got more important things to be worried about at the moment, alright? I'm not all that concerned with finding somebody now, it doesn't even make the list.
[Also other reasons which are kind of personal and he really doesn't want to get into...]
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Well I guess I can't argue with that really, but you shouldn't just completely ignore it you know. That is a very important experience to have!
You're lucky though, since it's something you can experience at any age. So even if you wait until you're an old fart, you can still look for love. That's the best part about it! It's ageless.
[Love is basically the best yup.]
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Agree to disagree on importance.
[It's not that important. Why do girls think it's so important??? He doesn't understand.]
But back to what you were saying earlier. About this...Ciel, was it? What advice exactly were you looking for with that. Since we kind of got sidetracked...
[Really sidetracked.]
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[But hey, alright, she'll let the subject be changed for now. Don't think she's going to give up on you though.]
Ciel is right! And see...I've always operated on the principles that if you really want someone, you just go for it! Don't hold back! Because it's better to be honest and truthful, no matter what. But...I really, really like him. And normally that's not an issue, but he's engaged...so now I'm not sure what to do. I haven't told him how I feel yet, he just explained that while I was trying to get him to dance at the ball. But now I'm not sure if I should. But at the same time, I still really like him!
[She's resting her chin on the table now, fingers just gripping the edge for now. This has been bothering her since the ball.]
I don't know what to do...
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[Judging by what she said earlier, he under the impression that he was around Mabel's age. But now she's saying he's engaged. Did...did Kuzuryuu just misunderstand? Nobody gets engaged at 12 anymore, that's just insane.]
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[He knows lots of ye oldes.]
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[Jesus, child, just how ADD are you?]
I'm just going to assume the answer to that is yes, he's from some time period where that sort of thing was normal. That said, my advice to you is this: don't.
[Wow, what do you know? It WAS something he could offer advice on after all! Though jeez, he probably could have elaborated a little instead of just saying "don't" so finitely.]
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